Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I Had A Plan But God Has A Better One?

I have to believe this. I was recently forced into making a life change. My place of employment made a decision to let me go after three years... Not based on something I had any control over... Not based on lack of education, skills or ability... Not based on a lack of desire to learn or to improve... BUT based on poor judgement on their part? So, it makes me wonder? Why DO bad things happen to good people? How could someone I had trusted so much do something to intentionally hurt me?? And then I think... will I ever actually need the answers to these questions? There is more to life than a job. And that is what it was... a job. How many jobs does one have in their lifetime? Fifty years ago, could have been one or two, maybe even three (although unlikely). Today, could be 10 or 15! So there you have it folks. I have already worked for six different companies and I am only 26. I have lived through a book's worth of chapters yet there is still room in that book for more. It sounds like I am doing alright I know (that all of my rocks are in check) however, the truth is... I was devastated. I knew I wanted to make a change. I just wasn't planning on doing it this soon and that is where divine intervention comes into play and I'll tell why I believe this!

Everything in my life has fallen into place thus far especially when it comes to my career. You see, when I graduated High School I had no idea what type of career I wanted to pursue. I knew I had the brains to do whatever I wanted but there was nothing that I passionately wanted to do. At the same time, I had influences in my life that helped make the legal field look somewhat more appealing to me. (A lot of you already know this story so feel free to skip ahead. For those of you that don't keep reading!) So, my father, in an attempt to try and guide his confused teenage daughter into choosing a career path the best way he knew how, handed me the CCAC course catalog. As I flipped through, already somewhat interested in law, I came across the Associates Degree in Paralegal Studies section and that was it. I made my choice. So for two years I studied the legal field and learned, if anything, what the hell a Paralegal was. When my community college experience was near end, my advisor not only "advised" me to get my BA but he encouraged me to apply for an internship so that I could gain "office" experience while simultaneously finishing my degree. And that is what I did. The internship I received was with a firm that had an office in Monroeville as well as an office in Oxford Center, downtown. So it just so happened that when I transferred from CCAC to Point Park University to work on my BA, I was also able to transfer my internship location to the downtown office. Luck or something else? Funny how life works sometimes isn't it? My next journey left me young and determined and with that I was able to complete my BA in Legal Studies within the next year and a half all while gaining paid office experience! When my BA journey ended, it was time to find a real job! During this process a friend of mine recommended a placement agency. I worked as a temp for awhile but it wasn't long until I landed my first "real" job at Thorp Reed & Armstrong. (And I have to take a minute to say this part because they're all reading: It was there that I had made some of my best friends =) A year and a half with that firm not only taught me a lot but also happened to get me through (financially) to my wedding. After that event took place, now on my own, I sought to find something a little closer to home. I made the decision to leave TRA for a small law firm in the Cranberry area. Unfortunately, a month into the new gig I knew it wasn't for me so a temp I was again! Until one day, a recruiter that had worked with some time earlier that year called me out of the blue with a lead on the Pepper Hamilton position. (It was a long shot as I had zero experience in the field but I nailed the interview and they were desperate I think.) Either way, the offer was extended and the position, mine. At the time I started there (almost 3 years ago) I knew nothing about Intellectual Property. Intellectual What? I swear I had never even heard of it! And they hired me? Stuuuupid! But what an awesome opportunity for me let me tell you! I was 23 when I started working there and I was a fighter. During my time with them I had went from essentially nothing to eventually gaining my own office, a title change, a promotion, an extensive raise, etc. What more could a girl want? But with power comes envy and with envy comes malice. Trust no one.

Now here is where it all fits together... (I know it's been long but I promise it will make sense).

Now I am jobless. I think back to 4, almost 5 years ago at the time I worked at TRA and this is what I gather: I was unhappy with my career and I had no real passion for it. I remember spending numerous lunchtime hours on the phone with Pitt inquiring about their Elementary Education program. Really. I had worked in the legal field less than two years and I already wanted out. So why didn't I do it then? What happened that made me decide to stay doing something I didn't really even like? Why didn't I make the change four years ago? The answer? Opportunity. Someone or something (a higher power if you wish) placed opportunities at my fingertips that I couldn't bear to turn down. It was this sequence of events that led me to Pepper Hamilton and it was there that I had conjured up a plan to finally leave the field. I had a plan. I really did. I enrolled in Drexel University's School of Education Online. I was finally doing it. I didn't care if it took me two, three or four years to complete it, I just felt relief to know that I was finally working toward a more positive future. I started in the Spring of 2009. (It's still coming together I promise.) Just recently (Spring), I completed a quarter and made a decision to take the Summer quarter off. After all, I wasn't in any hurry because I knew I was eventually getting out! But something changed during my time off... Self-Doubt. I became weary of my decision making skills and started second guessing my instincts, even wondering if I should just give up and focus on the "path of least resistance" (i.e. the Paralegal career)... and that is when, low and behold, I was thrown a life twist. Something that I never thought could happen in a million years... happened. It was unfair, unjust, unlucky, uneverything but it was also my answer. Here I am wondering if I should quit the school I had just started and give up on one of my dreams when God provided me with the opportunity to answer my own questions...

Jobless on unemployment (although I forgot to mention the Real Estate License. Isn't it funny how I decided to go and get THAT out of the blue not thinking that I would ever actually need to do it full-time. It used to just be my hobby =), I have two options: 1. Find another Paralegal job and continue to slave away for some of the world's most sinister beings, or 2. Re-enroll in Drexel's accelerated program and take advantage of this opportunity (see, there's that word again) to be able to acquire my Elementary Education Teaching Certificate in less than a year's time. If I pass up this opportunity now I may never have a chance to get it back. The Lesson: He may not always answer us the way we want him to but he answers. This experience gave me the insight I needed to make a life-altering decision. And no, I'm not "lucky" in this way. Anyone who has faith can have similar experiences. You just need to ask. So, in conclusion... yes, I had a plan BUT maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself.

lam

Monday, August 17, 2009

First Blog Post Since March!

I'm blogging again! Honestly, I need to do it. It not only documents all of the major/minor events in my life but it is my outsource... my way to vent! I know I haven't posted anything since March so I have a lot of catching up to do but don't worry, that is about to change and it's not the only thing that has changed! I am jobless at the moment. I promise to write more about that later but for now I just want to say that I have no excuse not to keep you guys informed on what is going on in the Macik household! So hold me to it and don't stop checking! More posts to come, a promise is a promise =)
lam

Saturday, March 7, 2009

More To Come On This...

Two more days until I am 'home sweet home'. After 24 hours of traveling (including sleeping in the backseat of a GMC truck) we arrived in Winter Haven, Florida. This was exactly 7 days ago. Today I write to you from Thomson, Georgia. Nothin' like southern hospitality to keep you sane on a 9 day adventure with none other than.... Matt and Jeff! Although I love them both.... THEY DRIVE ME NUTS!!! And although truly lovely down here in the 80 degree weather.... I MISS PITTSBURGH! I can't wait to come home! Oh..... wait, I guess I should mention the reason why I am down here in the first place? Well.......... Racing. (<- As if you couldn't of guessed it yourself! Ha!) Yes. It is the start of the 2009 GNCC Series for the guys and it began in River Ranch Florida on Tuesday, March 3rd with the 2nd race of the series to follow in Washington, Georgia - tomorrow. I must say it has been an interesting week. Believe it or not, it has also been a lot of hard work! Both for the 2 guys... and for me (for putting up with the 2 guys). I will not lie.... some days it took everything I had - other days - I just let my frustration fly right out of my big fat mouth! Overall, it has been a good trip so far. As for some quick stats, Matt placed 11th in his class (which is great for not having rode his dirtbike for 4 months!) and Jeff placed 6th in his class (with a flat front tire =) Of course the most important thing is that they both had fun and no one got hurt =) In between races we were able to take a break and relax in Orlando at Universal Studios and Islands of Adventure theme parks which were totally awesome! Now I hate to do this to you because I definitely have more to talk about and some great pics too so stay tuned!, but for now... I am going to go relax at the "Scottish Inns" and get back to my South Beach Diet book while the guys watch Supercross!
P.S. Don't forget to "Spring Ahead" tonight! In my perfect world, there would be no clock.
lam

Monday, February 23, 2009

Expect The Unexpected….

So I used to hear people use this saying a lot… and lately I've got to thinking about it? And for the record, I don't think it works. No matter how hard one tries to predict the so-called "unexpected" 99.999% of the time they will be wrong! Seriously, the things that happen in "Lee Ann World" I would have never "expected" or "unexpected"…. So why is it that this saying was ever even used in the first place then? No one can "expect" the "unexpected"… or, can they? Damn psychics. All I am saying is that it doesn't work for me. Am I confusing anyone?
lam

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I can't believe I am doing this... Facebook that is!

Yep! I am jumping on the facebook bandwagon. Everyone I know is doing it! I am always late with this stuff.... as in MySpace, Blogging, Facebook.... I am always the last one on! Every time I think I am strong enough to resist, peer pressure gets the best of me. SO here I am now with a myspace page, a blog and a facebook page. Honestly, I don't know how they all keep up with this crap! I end up spending too much time on one and forgetting about the others... although, there is nothing wrong with a little networking these days, right? I mean, if I didn't give into these online temptations how would I have ever been able to locate the guy with whom I had my first kiss just to say "hi" again? That is like so totally important! (And I am so totally being sarcastic!) But I guess it is nice to see what people are up to (by looking at photos of them partying, drunk off their *sses!).. That's always fun! Well I guess I shouldn't be cuttin on it since I'm doing it too (not getting drunk and taking pictures of myself but "facebooking"... if that's even a word?). If anyone wants to be a dork with me, I suggest you do the same. If you're already a dork, check me out on facebook =)
lam

Random Post: Hmmm.... have you ever wondered what was on my ipod playlist?

Don't Laugh! IF you do... Maybe you should ask yourself this question... "What's on yours?" Haha.. Oh, wait... Do you even have one? That's what I thought! Now read on!
Gin Blossoms - Hey Jealosy
Ashley Tisdale - He Said, She Said
Miley Cyrus - Girls Just Want To Have Fun, See You Again, 7 Things
John Mayer - Waiting On The World To Change
Miranda Lambert - Kerosene
Ryan Cabrera - On The Way Down
Taylor Swift - Tim McGraw
Emmy Rossum - Slow Me Down
Amy Lee/Seether - Broken
Big and Rich - Lost In This Moment
Angela Via - Picture Perfect
Train - Meet Virginia
Marcy Playground - Sex & Candy
Mindy McCready - A Girl's Gotta Do
Rancid - Ruby Soho
Bad Religion - 21st Century Digital Boy
Gavin Degraw - I Don't Want To Be
Kerli - Walking On Air
Slipknot - Wait and Bleed
John Mayer - Free Fallin'
Sarah Connor Feat. Ne-Yo - Sexual Healing
Paramore - Misery Business, When It Rains, Born For This, That's What You Get, For a Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic

Ok.... So I know you're either singing some of these songs in your head right now (or out loud), saying to yourself, "I remember that song!", saying to yourself, "I should download that." Or, to the contrary... "I can't believe she listens to that!"

Random taste... I know.
lam

Spinning Class May Be The Death Of Me...

As I make an attempt to get in shape for bikini season... I think I might die (if I don't pass out, fall off my bike and smash my head off the wheel first.) I'm up to like 4 or 5 classes a week now.... what is wrong with me! Maybe I just shouldn't eat so much?

Lee Ann's Top 10 Favorite Foods:

1. Chocolate
2. Seafood (especially Alaskan King Crab Legs =)
3. Steak
4. Birthday Cake, Ice Cream & Donuts.
5. Mentos (the fruity ones)
6. Pizza
7. Chinese
8. Kaya
9. Mexican
10. Every dessert on the face of the planet!

I like everything. No wonder?
lam